近来的“血压升高”。。。面对那些无理取闹的人，堆积如山的工作。。
昨天晚上开始，背痛、发烧、头痛。。。吃了晚餐，吃药睡觉。。。在床上辗转难眠、背痛难耐。一直在换着姿势，无奈又是一夜难眠。
今早起来，情况还是没什么改变。。头痛、头晕、烧还没退。勉强吃了面包、喝了一大杯的温水。。再吃药。浑浑噩噩的在沙发上睡着了。醒来的时候，觉得头发是湿的，衣服也有点湿湿的。。烧退了~
换了件衣服，抹了抹汗。到厨房煮了碗粥吃。吃了热腾腾的粥，汗水不停的流，感觉舒服多了。看看电话（为了不让人打扰，电话一直都是静音状态），7个missed call，3则短讯。回了两通重要的电话，3则短讯。
打开电脑，查看电邮。42未读。回了重要的。关了电脑。吃药。
看《原来爱上贼》第18集。
晕晕的又睡在沙发上。
现在醒着，背还有点痛，但烧没了。
功课还没做，明天一定要做！星期六上课。
下星期又会是非常忙碌的一个星期。祝我好运~
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Those who knows me… knew that I’m a hot tempered person. I’ve changed a lot since my working life. Training my EQ… controlling my emotion…. some preventive actions like walk away from the current situation… keeping quite for some moments… It do helps in some situations.
I know when I’m in extreme stressful situation, I’m not capable to react as how it shouold be. The ”self control system” is seems to malfunction… I’ve been reminding myself… but I repeated the same mistake. It happened yesterday again (again as the similar incident happened last mth). I feel bad after doing this (even till now), I’ve refuse to lend a helping hand to the customer. Also not treating them nicely.
I’m extremely stressful for the past few weeks. Not because of my own job scope, but relate to others. When all the jobs are just flowing to me and not be able to get any feedback or answer to any of the queries that I’ve. I admit, I’m incapable of handling so many things at the same time which is out of my job territory.
You would said, why not feedback to your management? I DID! At first, I talk nicely…. keep on reminding…. at last I show my pissed off face, I raised my voice!
For the past 2 wks, I’ve been stayed to finished works that is not my job till late at night. (I just cant let the work lying there without anyone doing it…. it so unfair to the customer…) One day big boss saw my eyes in the morning, it red and big black eyes bag. I was on the calls whole day, looking stressed! He stayed late that day and we had a chat. We talked about my work and what I want. Some kind of promised was given, anyway I will wait… Have been waiting for the past 6mths no different for another 3-4mths. Will be completing my 2 yrs service in coming Sept.
Back to topic… not sure because of the weather changed (now is over 40degrees) or because of stress, I’ve been suffering from migraine for the past 3 days. Feel better today.
I’m back to normal now… 
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放弃是一种智慧；
放弃是一种超脱，
是一种激动，
更是一种策略，
放弃该放弃的，那是勇气；
不该放弃的不放弃，那是豪气；
该放弃的不放弃，那是赌气；
不该放弃的放弃，那是傻气.
p/s: 在朋友的msn看到的。
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性可以在没有爱的前提下进行。
性可以是一种交易。
金钱的交易，甲方满足乙方的性欲，乙方以金钱作为补偿。
需求的交易，在双方没有任何承诺的同意下进行，只为达到心理、生理性欲需求的满足。
以上两种是很常见的性交易。
但随着潮流的发展，以上两种交易演变成二合一。前提，没有承诺（双方都另觅个自的伴侣）、没有爱。只是朋友的身份。有时见见面，发泄发泄（可以是生理的发泄也可以是心理的发牢骚）。其中一方会给予金钱上的补助。
我并不排撤或同意这样的做法。但既然是双方同意下进行的，外人不该给予任何的意见。
如果说是道德沦落，你和我都没有办法给予一定的界限。
大家都不要承诺，不能/要给予对方任何承诺。与其让一方痴痴的等，不如摊开来说个明白。你明我明，接受了就无怨无悔。
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